Mary Awad - Road Trip: A Map to Finding Yourself

Road Map: A Map to Finding Yourself

Mary Awad

July

Run away.

You are fearless.

Your hair whips against your back as the wind blows propelling you forward in an unknown direction. Is it the road less travelled? The beaten path? Or is it the road no one has travelled before and you’re the first? It’s because you are fearless. You strive to achieve. But what do you want to accomplish? As of now, you’re not sure. Anything, you suppose. You could make something or do something or be someone- but that’s not important to you. The feeling is. Knowing you made that or did that or were that, even if no one else does. Self achievement, satisfaction, self-worth, you don’t know what to call it but you want it. The irony’s almost tangible. But you know one thing: you can’t achieve anything here. So you throw your things in the back of a used car your sister doesn’t drive anymore and disappear. But you’re not sad because you know you’re on the right path because the only one walking it is you. Your hair whips against your back as the wind blows. You knew you should’ve gotten the car window fixed before you left. But your heart was always louder than your head and the desire to leave was so fervent that it muted your logic. And what your heart is saying now…it’s what you’ve always wanted to hear.

Run away.

You are fearless.